i thought i would update this with my personality profile. i am what is refered to as a INFJwhich means "Introverted iNtuiting Feeling Judging"

INFJs are distinguished by both their complexity of character and the unusual range and depth of their talents. Strongly humanitarian in outlook, INFJs tend to be idealists, and because of their J preference for closure and completion, they are generally "doers" as well as dreamers. This rare combination of vision and practicality often results in INFJs taking a disproportionate amount of responsibility in the various causes to which so many of them seem to be drawn.

INFJs are deeply concerned about their relations with individuals as well as the state of humanity at large. They are, in fact, sometimes mistaken for extroverts because they appear so outgoing and are so genuinely interested in people -- a product of the Feeling function they most readily show to the world. On the contrary, INFJs are true introverts, who can only be emotionally intimate and fulfilled with a chosen few from among their long-term friends, family, or obvious "soul mates." While instinctively courting the personal and organizational demands continually made upon them by others, at intervals INFJs will suddenly withdraw into themselves, sometimes shutting out even their intimates. This apparent paradox is a necessary escape valve for them, providing both time to rebuild their depleted resources and a filter to prevent the emotional overload to which they are so susceptible as inherent "givers." As a pattern of behavior, it is perhaps the most confusing aspect of the enigmatic INFJ character to outsiders, and hence the most often misunderstood -- particularly by those who have little experience with this rare type.

Due in part to the unique perspective produced by this alternation between detachment and involvement in the lives of the people around them, INFJs may well have the clearest insights of all the types into the motivations of others, for good and for evil. The most important contributing factor to this uncanny gift, however, are the empathic abilities often found in Fs, which seem to be especially heightened in the INFJ type (possibly by the dominance of the introverted N function).

This empathy can serve as a classic example of the two-edged nature of certain INFJ talents, as it can be strong enough to cause discomfort or pain in negative or stressful situations. More explicit inner conflicts are also not uncommon in INFJs; it is possible to speculate that the causes for some of these may lie in the specific combinations of preferences which define this complex type. For instance, there can sometimes be a "tug-of-war" between NF vision and idealism and the J practicality that urges compromise for the sake of achieving the highest priority goals. And the I and J combination, while perhaps enhancing self-awareness, may make it difficult for INFJs to articulate their deepest and most convoluted feelings.

Usually self-expression comes more easily to INFJs on paper, as they tend to have strong writing skills. Since in addition they often possess a strong personal charisma, INFJs are generally well-suited to the "inspirational" professions such as teaching (especially in higher education) and religious leadership. Psychology and counseling are other obvious choices, but overall, INFJs can be exceptionally difficult to pigeonhole by their career paths. Perhaps the best example of this occurs in the technical fields. Many INFJs perceive themselves at a disadvantage when dealing with the mystique and formality of "hard logic", and in academic terms this may cause a tendency to gravitate towards the liberal arts rather than the sciences. However, the significant minority of INFJs who do pursue studies and careers in the latter areas tend to be as successful as their T counterparts, as it is *iNtuition* -- the dominant function for the INFJ type -- which governs the ability to understand abstract theory and implement it creatively.

In their own way, INFJs are just as much "systems builders" as are INTJs; the difference lies in that most INFJ "systems" are founded on human beings and human values, rather than information and technology. Their systems may for these reasons be conceptually "blurrier" than analogous NT ones, harder to measure in strict numerical terms, and easier to take for granted -- yet it is these same underlying reasons which make the resulting contributions to society so vital and profound.

by Marina Margaret Heiss

http://typelogic.com/infj.html

there is a little bit to explina my strange behavior. :) kinda scary how true these thigns can be

This is for debbie, cause she keeps making remarks about my lack of updates. :) at this point i thought about just ending it there and going to bed, but that would only bring more remarks later.

i ahve been packing most of the day, i took a break to play computer games wiht Brian, and then babysit at church and the help babysit the Ferris kids. then packed somemore, i was going to go to bed "early" but brian needed entertainment at work so i baked a pizza and we hung out for a few hours takling. that was fun, i don't get to really talk talk that much to him, usually its all about games or something. eh whaever.

tomorrow is going to be really fun, we are going to be moving the rest of the stuff into teh new apartment and my future roomates are coming up to help and move theier stuff. i am really excited about ahngin out with tehma nd gettinga  glace at waht our year is goign to be like living together! also i am excited to not be alone in teh apartment even for a few days. its nice to have so much room, but becasue of the lack of social interaaction i get kinda lonely alot and thats no fun. 

well i better sleep, since its already almsot 4 and i ahev to eb up by 10, so i'll write more later.

ok recently i realized a problem that i have been having. i have gotten used to being needed, being the person that other people turn to, and now i am adjusting to being alone. now i know that i am not really alone, i have freinds around and can hang out wiht people, but i mean i am alone in the sense that no one needs me. i used to be needed by my roomate, i was the one she woudl talk to, now she has her fiance, my other girlfrinds are roomates or jsut hang out together all the time so they are always together and have each other, my guy friends all have girlfriends that thye confide in. so i have left alone. i don't know if it is my selfishness that makes me want to be the one peopel turn to, i don't know if its jsut my lonleyness overcoming everything else. now i know peopeol will be quick to point out that i have God so i shoudltn be lonly, i know this. but God is the one i turn to, God doenst need to turn to me to talk about issues, he doesnt need me in that sense. he needs me to do his work and be a witness, but not the kind of need i am longing wihth every ounce of me for. this is the only time i have tlaked about this need. its hard to wlak up to someone and say, "so yeah the other day i realized i was alone..." when i was growing up i never really had friends, i woudl spend countless house by myself imaging and playing games...i even had kids avoid me and make a game out of avoidinga dn spying on me...talk about scarring...and my mom would always tell me "you know God is trainign you for sometime in your life when you won't have anyone around or you'll be in some isolated mission.." well if now is any indicator of how i would react in thoes situations, i will spend my life secretly crying and holding inside feelings of being alone and un neededness( if thats a word)

wow talk about a happy post.....oh well....it is my xanga and you read at your own risk....